A Change of Heart

I am making a promise to myself from here on out that I will not be down and out. That I will make both physical and emotional changes in my life. That will be a new years resolution. That and learning to play the guitar.

Namaste

My poetry...

I now have another blog at imaginelove.wordpress.com where I will do mainly Free Verse poetry. I will still blog here as well. Thanks!!

The Explanation

The other day I was asked about my recent obsession with The Beatles and wether or not it would ever end. I simply stated, not anytime soon. As I was laying in bed that night, listening to them, I got to thinking... why am I obssessed with them? I do listen to other music, in fact, I have actually discovered new music because of them. But there is something about the Beatles that really hits home (Figuratively speaking of course). 

I guess I will start from the beginning. I am not exactly sure when the love started. I guess you could say it was around the beginning of November. I had just recently lost my job and was basically feeling blank. I guess thats the best way for me to put it. I honestly don't know what made me want to suddenly start listening to their music, but I think it had something to do with someone I follow on Twitter. I went onto YouTube and found a whole bunch of videos and started watching them. I started to look through my old cd collection and found a whole bunch of their albums that had belonged to my dad. I went through them and put them on my computer and my iPhone. It was at this point that I finally sat down and started listening to them. I couldn't believe that I had missed out on this. I instantly started to find songs that fit in with my (then) current situation. I had read...later on....that the Beatles really had a song for every situation and moment in life. It never rung so true.

Fast forward a few weeks later. End of November. My now ex-fiance calls me up to tell me he doesn't want to be with me anymore. Unless you have gone through a similar experience, you can only imagine how I was feeling. Of course after a few days I felt like I had had an eye opening experience. I continued to listen to the Beatles because I felt like their music was more than just... music. I had then gone to a meditation class where my teacher told me very sincerely that I was being pulled in another direction. (Career wise and relationship wise). At the moment I felt free. I felt liberated and eager to see what was out there for me. I was happy inside. 

Well my love for the Beatles continues to grow in profound ways. I have been reading a biography recently on one particular Beatle by the name of John Lennon. He was so amazing in every aspect of his life. Such an inspiration. After my breakup, I decided to put on Rubber Soul. I instantly fell in love with all the songs. I felt like I really could relate to all those songs. But at the same time, I felt like the songs were a sign for me to open up my heart for newer and better things. 

This story does not have an end, as I hope it doesn't end. My love for the Beatles will continue to grow for as long as I am around. And yes, I will listen to other music, but my boys from Liverpool will forever and always hold a special place in my heart. 

Thanks for reading

John Winston Lennon

9 Oct 1940 - 8 Dec 1980

A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality.

All we are saying is give peace a chance.

All you need is love.

I'm not going to change the way I look or the way I feel to conform to anything. I've always been a freak. So I've been a freak all my life and I have to live with that, you know. I'm one of those people.

If being an egomaniac means I believe in what I do and in my art or music, then in that respect you can call me that... I believe in what I do, and I'll say it.

If someone thinks that love and peace is a cliche that must have been left behind in the Sixties, that's his problem. Love and peace are eternal.

Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans.

Our society is run by insane people for insane objectives. I think we're being run by maniacs for maniacal ends and I think I'm liable to be put away as insane for expressing that. That's what's insane about it.

There's nothing you can know that isn't known. 

Will the people in the cheaper seats clap your hands? And the rest of you, if you'll just rattle your jewelry.

Yeah we all shine on, like the moon, and the stars, and the sun.

You don't need anybody to tell you who you are or what you are. You are what you are!

You're just left with yourself all the time, whatever you do anyway. You've got to get down to your own God in your own temple. It's all down to you, mate.

**The world misses you John**

Going Through the (E)motions

I am 26 years old. Young in some ways, old in others. I have my whole life still in front of me. I can do whatever I want. I can go where ever I want. I can write whatever I want. And thats exactly what this blog will be used for. To express what I can't say outloud. Take it with a grain of salt or not at all. I will never write about specific people, but I will write about events involving specific people. If a name is mentioned, its a good thing. It is because you did something that effected my life in a profound way. Be glad. I tend to reflect on past things and how they could effect my present situation.

I am not one to usually write about what I am feeling or the motions that go with it. But I am now. Writing gives me sense of control. No one can tell me that I can't write certain things.

I am sure you are also wondering why I have a picture of John Lennon on my blog homepage. To put it simply. I love him. I have been listening to a lot of Beatles lately. Their music has really put a lot of things into perspective. I picked up a biography on Lennon recently and simply cannot put it down. He was an amazing musician, artist, peace activist, husband, father, and friend. I was born 3 years after he was killed and his message is still alive for me. That is an artist who had a profound impact on the general public. He was real, genuine, and had a love for everyone and everything. (Not saying Paul, George, and Ringo didn't) I have learned so much more about each Beatle that I have a hard time picking a favorite. However, now you can kind of understand why I have Lennon on my blog.

Ok..I think I have written enough to satisfy my inner creative process. I'm going to go back to listening to my music, tweeting, and people watching

Hare Krishna

The Music

Its quiet
I can hear people chattering
"How have you been?"
"Do you want anything to eat?"
"It's been so long"
I put my music back on
It drowns out the chatter
I wonder what they are really thinking

Untitled - an original by Alex S.

There she stands
Her smile plain
Painted on like a Mona Lisa
The universe tugging at her
Pulling her this way and that
She struggles with the force
Her lips open to speak
Silence spills out
She breathes in
She breathes out
The people move quickly
Never noticing the sounds
She reaches out to touch them
They shiver with the wind
She exhales
She inhales
The beauty is around her
She pulls out her guitar
The melody in her head
Drains through to her fingertips
She watches the world slow down
They stop to look
They stop to listen
She speaks
She sings
And he watches
And he sees
And he paints the smile
On his Mona Lisa